Sunday, December 5, 2010

when you find this

goodbye

the simplest // hardest word to say. to learn. to understand. and to experience.
most people hate to say goodbye, because once you say that word, you stand a chance to not be able to see that person ever again.

promises come next
i don't believe in promise, because even myself i can't make a promise
so i don't expect people to do the same
but deep in my heart i'd loved to receive it
how many promises do we make each day? and how many do end up keeping?

distraction appears later.
one factor that demolishes and fades the promise away
like a wind blowing the dust away
like a sun shining the light to keep the moon away
your happiness. your sorrows. your time. and your life.
they are everything that keep you away from your promises. or should i say vice versa.

regrets never stop coming.
one last thing is regret.
they come without asking our permission, they go without seeking our acknowledgment
they are the fear in our life.

i am here,
learning how to say goodbye

learning how to keep my promises
learning how to avoid all the distractions
and of course learning how to stop the regrets in coming into my life.

but i shall not be the only one. they other person that you are saying goodbye with have to understand this. otherwise you and i will be standing alone, fighting for what we think is worth, but in fact it turns up to be nothing.




Saturday, November 13, 2010

the little something

superstition limitation freedom

culture belief self-formation

time life love

sorrow joy purpose

freedom love purpose self discovery

random words that came across to me, that seems to be connected to each other
take your time and think about it. u might find out who you really are and what you really want




sorry that i loved you (by anthony)

for all of the times that i tried for your smile
for making you think i was worth the while
so your love would be mine

for sending you flowers and holding your hand
that no one was there to take a stand
but love makes us blind

and i'm sorry that i hurt you
sorry that i was fell through
sorry i was falling in love with you

i'm sorry that it came through
but sorry doesn't turn back time
for all that i have done to you
i wish i could make it right

sorry that i hurt you
sorry that i needed you
sorry that i held you tight



the beauty of this life is one

hopeless dreams and hopeless thoughts

where am i going? no one knows.

who knows this could feel right.

indescribable feelings

unreadable emotions

hopeless dreamers and hopeless times

this don't feel right

who knows what i feel

.let me kiss the sun at night



cigarettes


.first thought.

the thought of never seeing you again
the thought of the promises
the thought of the time
the thought of this friendship
the thought of the distance

light me up like a cigarettes

the thought of being alone
the thought of the uncertainty of my future
the thought of the insecurity within me
the thought of what the world expect
the thought of proving my self

and just let me burn catch fire and burn

the thought of the impossible
the thought of the i'm possible
the thought of the dreams
the thought of the wishes
the thought of the lies

so let me just burn and vanish

the thought of these thoughts

let me burn

Friday, April 23, 2010

f.r.i.e.n.d.s

i think i don't have friends
tons of people coming into my life and goes away
round and round and round again and again and again
but no one stay

Saturday, April 10, 2010

Habitual

along the river grasses grown
along the river water glided
along the river misty life begun

the mist that is so foggy that life seems to be the blind side of mine
i'm disappointed i'm upset i'm lost