the little something

superstition limitation freedom

culture belief self-formation

time life love

sorrow joy purpose

freedom love purpose self discovery

random words that came across to me, that seems to be connected to each other

take your time and think about it. u might find out who you really are and what you really want

sorry that i loved you (by anthony)

for all of the times that i tried for your smile

for making you think i was worth the while

so your love would be mine

for sending you flowers and holding your hand

that no one was there to take a stand

but love makes us blind

and i'm sorry that i hurt you

sorry that i was fell through

sorry i was falling in love with you

i'm sorry that it came through

but sorry doesn't turn back time

for all that i have done to you

i wish i could make it right

sorry that i hurt you

sorry that i needed you

sorry that i held you tight

the beauty of this life is one

hopeless dreams and hopeless thoughts

where am i going? no one knows.

who knows this could feel right.

indescribable feelings

unreadable emotions

hopeless dreamers and hopeless times

this don't feel right

who knows what i feel

.let me kiss the sun at night

cigarettes

.first thought.

the thought of never seeing you again

the thought of the promises

the thought of the time

the thought of this friendship

the thought of the distance

light me up like a cigarettes

the thought of being alone

the thought of the uncertainty of my future

the thought of the insecurity within me

the thought of what the world expect

the thought of proving my self

and just let me burn catch fire and burn

the thought of the impossible

the thought of the i'm possible

the thought of the dreams

the thought of the wishes

the thought of the lies

so let me just burn and vanish

the thought of these thoughts

let me burn

f.r.i.e.n.d.s

i think i don't have friends

tons of people coming into my life and goes away

round and round and round again and again and again

but no one stay

Habitual

along the river grasses grown

along the river water glided

along the river misty life begun

the mist that is so foggy that life seems to be the blind side of mine

i'm disappointed i'm upset i'm lost

D.A.D

new year, supposed to be a great start ahead

but, randomly my dad called on me, asked me why you guys never talk to me.

i had no idea how to reply him, heaps of answers appeared in my mind, but i just couldn't let it out, more on what to tell him.

at the end i said I DON'T KNOW

he started talking on something that i couldn't really get what he was trying to say.

next he said everyone's life has their purpose, and he asked me what's their purpose, i said everyone has different purpose of life.

he continued by i have fulfilled my purpose of my life, so what is next? im useless now.

he said he wants to see his children to be successful, but until now, no one has reach that point yet. (speechless)

the worse thing is he said 'i know your uncle's children gonna be excellent, but mine, all are stupid' yeah he said STUPID!

towards the end, he said i gonna die 'cham'...

i dont know what he wants,

all i know is he is selfish and he always think of something stupid instead of something positive,

i dont know what to do, I AM FRUSTRATED!!

REALLY REALLY FRUSTRATED

argghhhhhh