living in the uncomfortable zone

living in the uncomfortable zone teach me how to live my life to the fullest.

i have been here for about 3 months, 
and it is my first time to step into the life, where i have to reform and plant my self into a new church
it sounds good, but in fact it doenst taste so good. 
my current physical life is just so perfect, but my spiritual life is kind like 'dying'. 

i thought everything will be find here, my life, my study, my friends, my church and my community 
everything is very perfect, just my church and my community life is not.
i've been to two churches here, one is indonesian church (is really like fgcc) and the other one is family church (very small church)
the indonesia church is so far a way, one hour journey by train, so two hours for two ways. and it is in the morning
the family church is close to my place, the ps pick us up every sunday evening

in indonesia church, i joint the the class like i did in malaysia, the materials were all the same as u guys have there "change class" and i did join the camp (ER). but u guess what? i didn't get anything at all..
i asked God why, and the answer is 'im too proud of my self" i feel like i need no this kind of class because i joint for several times in malaysia. 
this is the first point that i want to emphasize on "PRIDE" 
                 +when u think u are great, i told u "He can makes the stone cleverer than u"
                 +when u think u dont have to bow down to Him, "He can makes all the sands praise to Him"
living as christians, we have to learn "how to learn", we have to keep reminding our self, that life is about learning! nothing will be too much to be learnt . 

as the time goes, i felt so weak, i felt so happy living in this current world! clubbin, smoking, and such
one time, there was a christian camp (hosted by christian fellowship monash campus) to one of the place here in melb, to explore the nature. i decided to join even i felt so lazy to do so. so finally i went for the camp. 
on that camp, i didnt bring any heart of worship, heart as disciple, all i had is the heart of having fun! 
and u guess? yeah God touched me and reminded me about my life. 
this is the second point, "when you are weak, HE is strong" 
                 +when u feel like u are nothing, He just can makes u move the mountain 
                 +when u expect nothing, He is the surprise for u

the third point is, back to basic "Trust in Him, and have your Faith in Him"
yeah this is what God told me during the camp. totally trust in Him, and put my faith in Him, the creator of all nations. 

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living in this uncomfortable zone, making me realized that who the true self of mine.
when i was in Malaysia, living with other christians, i can shout "God u are great" 
when i was in church, i can jump like im flying 
when i was together with those friends, i can tell His kindness 
when i was surrounded by chrtistians, i proved myself that i prayed to Him everyday 
when i was standing in the church i tell everybody that im holy and im great

when i am here surrounding by no one, living alone, go to church like normal people, no christian friends
what i do is showing me who am i. 
pray? daily bread? praise Him in my actions? my words? bless others? shout out loud that HE is great? 
BIG NO, 
seek His presence in my daily life? probably yes, when i faced problems!! 
sins? YES, im in love! 
THIS IS WHO AM I, WHEN THERE IS NO ONE AROUND ME
BUT, UNTIL HE CAME TO ME, and reminding me!! 
i realized how sinful and how selfish i am
i praise to Him for what He did, does, and doing in mylife! 

==>thats it guys, who are you when u are alone? ask your self! and see whether u are truthful to him or the vice versa ?

if u are same with me, and u are aiming for the perfect time to come and bring ur sins to Him 
i tell u "there will never be a perfect time" 
so, DO IT NOW!!

God bless u guys!!