cross paths

goodbye my love

my time here is up

we met by fate

we leave with faith

for one day we shall meet again

for one day we shall cross paths again

with hope

with dream

we have the courage

we know we will meet again

till then take care

letter for me

im writing this down to remind me of who am i in this time

i am lost without vision

i am miserable without you

i am confused without plans

i am yet to discover who i am

i am yet to realise what i want to do

i am yet to decide where i am going to be

i am yet to believe in my self

don't ask me why

because i don't know either.

the old me has clearly gone

the one who knows what to do next

the one who knows who is he gonna be

the one who knows where is he gonna stay

but once i see part of the world

once i shift from one interest to another one

once i meet new people in my life

once i share my experiences

i am once became the clay that yet to be shape

but i make a promise to myself

i will soon resolve all these problems.

i will soon reveal all these secrets

i know i will and i know i can

just let me be who ever i am now

you the soul that always there

for you,

here i am filling up this empty page with words and thoughts

here i am to say

thank you for who you are

you are the soul

the water that keep me flourish

the sun that keep me growing

you are the soul

the moon that keep me asleep

the stars that show me the lights

you are far

yet so close

you are no one

but your self

and i want to be the same for you

i want you to be happy

i want you to smile

i want you to keep shining

problem is always there, so does solution

sadness is always there, so does happiness

whenever you feel down, do remember there are other stuffs to keep you moving forward

past is past, future is yet to come, and now, now is the time for you to enjoy and cherish

last

i want you to be the rainbow

the colour that fill the sky after the darkness

i want you to be the rainbow

the promise that you will keep

i want you to be the rainbow

just because it is the beauty that no other things can compared to

and by rainbow i mean you

you are the rainbow

when you find this

goodbye

the simplest // hardest word to say. to learn. to understand. and to experience.

most people hate to say goodbye, because once you say that word, you stand a chance to not be able to see that person ever again.

promises come next

i don't believe in promise, because even myself i can't make a promise

so i don't expect people to do the same

but deep in my heart i'd loved to receive it

how many promises do we make each day? and how many do end up keeping?

distraction appears later.

one factor that demolishes and fades the promise away

like a wind blowing the dust away

like a sun shining the light to keep the moon away

your happiness. your sorrows. your time. and your life.

they are everything that keep you away from your promises. or should i say vice versa.

regrets never stop coming.

one last thing is regret.

they come without asking our permission, they go without seeking our acknowledgment

they are the fear in our life.

i am here,

learning how to say goodbye

learning how to keep my promises

learning how to avoid all the distractions

and of course learning how to stop the regrets in coming into my life.

but i shall not be the only one. they other person that you are saying goodbye with have to understand this. otherwise you and i will be standing alone, fighting for what we think is worth, but in fact it turns up to be nothing.

the little something

superstition limitation freedom

culture belief self-formation

time life love

sorrow joy purpose

freedom love purpose self discovery

random words that came across to me, that seems to be connected to each other

take your time and think about it. u might find out who you really are and what you really want

sorry that i loved you (by anthony)

for all of the times that i tried for your smile

for making you think i was worth the while

so your love would be mine

for sending you flowers and holding your hand

that no one was there to take a stand

but love makes us blind

and i'm sorry that i hurt you

sorry that i was fell through

sorry i was falling in love with you

i'm sorry that it came through

but sorry doesn't turn back time

for all that i have done to you

i wish i could make it right

sorry that i hurt you

sorry that i needed you

sorry that i held you tight

the beauty of this life is one

hopeless dreams and hopeless thoughts

where am i going? no one knows.

who knows this could feel right.

indescribable feelings

unreadable emotions

hopeless dreamers and hopeless times

this don't feel right

who knows what i feel

.let me kiss the sun at night

cigarettes

.first thought.

the thought of never seeing you again

the thought of the promises

the thought of the time

the thought of this friendship

the thought of the distance

light me up like a cigarettes

the thought of being alone

the thought of the uncertainty of my future

the thought of the insecurity within me

the thought of what the world expect

the thought of proving my self

and just let me burn catch fire and burn

the thought of the impossible

the thought of the i'm possible

the thought of the dreams

the thought of the wishes

the thought of the lies

so let me just burn and vanish

the thought of these thoughts

let me burn

f.r.i.e.n.d.s

i think i don't have friends

tons of people coming into my life and goes away

round and round and round again and again and again

but no one stay

Habitual

along the river grasses grown

along the river water glided

along the river misty life begun

the mist that is so foggy that life seems to be the blind side of mine

i'm disappointed i'm upset i'm lost

D.A.D

new year, supposed to be a great start ahead

but, randomly my dad called on me, asked me why you guys never talk to me.

i had no idea how to reply him, heaps of answers appeared in my mind, but i just couldn't let it out, more on what to tell him.

at the end i said I DON'T KNOW

he started talking on something that i couldn't really get what he was trying to say.

next he said everyone's life has their purpose, and he asked me what's their purpose, i said everyone has different purpose of life.

he continued by i have fulfilled my purpose of my life, so what is next? im useless now.

he said he wants to see his children to be successful, but until now, no one has reach that point yet. (speechless)

the worse thing is he said 'i know your uncle's children gonna be excellent, but mine, all are stupid' yeah he said STUPID!

towards the end, he said i gonna die 'cham'...

i dont know what he wants,

all i know is he is selfish and he always think of something stupid instead of something positive,

i dont know what to do, I AM FRUSTRATED!!

REALLY REALLY FRUSTRATED

argghhhhhh